Say to you .....

Some people have asked me, "do you regret giving up something / someone?"
Hear the question, and my heart suddenly felt a kind of sour. Admittedly, I have indeed regret the no reason to give up to continue to wait for him, I am not so sad, but my heart knows the truth clearly, we were not likely to go together. My friends say deleted you ; forget you; will be better for me. Maybe they are right ,remove you, i will not be happy without the things you write again.I will not be treated because you feel lost. Only occasionally feel lonely when i come to think of you. I'm really afraid, afraid to put you again i refuse, then scarred me, so you will be suddenly deleted. Whether you have cherished before the friendship between us, I think I should tell you to say sorry. Delete you, does not mean you will no longer be my friend. In my heart ..... you will always be my friend.

我喜欢你♥

我喜欢你________

我可以凭一时冲动为你做好多事，

不计较你是否喜欢我；

但我不敢爱你，

因为爱你我会期待你会为我做同样的事。


我喜欢你__________

那我可以默默地，

偶尔跳出来吓你一跳；

但我不敢爱你，

因为爱你需要一直好好表现自己。


我喜欢你__________

才会告诉自己要高贵一些；

但我不敢爱你，

因为我不想让自己变得那么卑微。



我喜欢你.__________

但我只永远把这个感觉藏在心中。。。。

果如

如果我还喜欢你，那会是怎样？

会不会接受我？

会不会给大家多一次机会？

答案，我得到了。

那就是我应该把机会留给其他人，

留给那些爱我的男生。

这次，

我没有很失望，也没有伤心，

因为，

那只是如果。

明明~

你有没有过这样的时候？

明明很想哭，却还在笑。
明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。

明明很想留下，
    却坚定的说要离开。
明明很痛苦，
   却偏偏说自己很幸福。
明明忘不掉，
   却说已经忘了。
明明放不下，
   却说他是他；我是我。
明明舍不得，
    却说我已经受够了。
明明说的是违心的假话，
     却说那是自己的真心话。

明明眼泪都快要溢出眼眶，
   却高昂着头。
明明已经无法挽回，
  却依执著着。
明明知道自己很受伤，
  却说你不必觉得欠我的。
明明“伪装”着很累，
  却还得依旧。。。

为的只是隐藏起自己的脆弱。
即使很难过，
也会装的无所谓。。。
只是不愿别人看见自己的伤口，
不想让自己周围的人担心，
不想让别人同情自己。。。
只想在心底独自承受。

虽然心疼的难以呼吸，
却笑着告诉别人
“我没事的！”
然后静下来时，自己便笑话自己，
何必把自己伪装的那么坚强？
好像自己可以承受所有的苦难。。。
 呵呵，好累。。。
好累。。。。

Thought i would not mind if you ever say lies.But recently i was tired,I does not want to pretending anymore.Say you want to say;do what you want to do,dont interfere in my life.I do not love you,the day after i will be fine.Just continue your disguise,i really do not want to play again.You should be happy such a decision,because it is what you want most.From now on,no longer be the one you never liked the girls struggle with;no longer have to forced yourself to chat with her;no longer to try to expain to her.

Some things i really know,but i do not want to say that because i do not want to hurt you.So,please be honest,do not lie to me or disguise,because i'm not stupid people.Is very much aware that i would like to ask you who avoid heart problem.Well,i'm very regret that we cannot together,but the regret will dissappear someday.Now promise myself,study hard and lose weight,afterthat departure for the love again.

If i can be like my sister did have the opportunity to study abroad,i will cherish it.I really want to leave here,to throw away all the bad memories i had and know more friends,enjoy some quite life.......

When i write this article,i was out my tears:(

I thought that i has many friends,but when im not happy and looking for friends to complain,actually not one.Even if there is,i think she does not like to listening,so i prefer dont tell.Do you know?I hate when you clearly know what i mean,you are disguised.I really do not understand your heart in mind.Do you really common when i was your friend?If i do decide to give up,you really happy?You will never know,how my heart is too uncomfortable when you say we are just good friend forever.Knowing that you did not like me,but i still persistant,it is because i do  really love you.I'm not chasing no one,nor is unwanted,but i think that seat in my heart is only belongs to you.But you never know what i want.Even if you know that, you will not accept me.Recently,i  felt a sense of distance with you.When i texting with you,i really want to tell you everything,but in the end i still have the courage,that is because i know the answer you gave.Sometimes,i'd rather do not want you to contact me,i do not like to hear what you say i will be unhappy all day.How much  i hope that you will personally told me that you love me,but i know it will never happen........

好累

最近患上了老人痴呆症，总是忘记这个，忘记那个。昨天差点忘记买朋友的生日蛋糕，差点庆祝不到咧。还好妹妹的提醒，我立刻换衣服出去买。今天又忘记英文考试，更离谱的是我居然忘记这个星期四要考mid-year exam。唉......死咯，今次的考试一定全科不及格咯，到现在都不知自己在做着什么。很想不读，可是我知道爸妈一定不允许。身边有几个跟我比较好的朋友也是读到明年就不读了。看到一个接一个地离开，心里有一种冲动想不读了。老实说，目前的我已经有几科跟不上了，每天都逼自己去死背。LCCI真的不容易读，现在有点后悔当初为什么不坚持去ktar读hotel management。有时候，我也真的很讨厌搭车。没有人会知道，一个人在车站等巴士的感受是怎样。如果那时候还下着大雨的话，你简直会想哭出来，没人理的时候真的很无助。搭车就算了，回到珠毛巴刹却没人来载我回家，唯有自己走路咯，还蛮“近”的啦......停还是不停?其实心里已经有了答案，只是我的答案只能埋在心里的最底层不可以说出口。两年.....我每天都安慰自己说：“两年很快过，我要坚持继续读下去，至少拿到几张文凭才离开，将来要找到一份很好的工作，这样爸爸妈妈才不会对我感到失望。”可是现在的我真的不知道自己可以撑到多久。我曾经告诉一个朋友说我不想读的时候，她的反应还蛮大的，说了一些我听了会感到内疚的话，所以我再也不敢跟任何人说“我想休学”这四个字。算了，说出来舒服一点了。我知道，选择权永远都没我份，所以只好跟随父母的planning 而走，至少他们不会对我感到失望和不开心。